i already forget how i used to feel about you

Yesterday during church the pastor spoke about viewing yourself as a bride for God the groom. As I was walking home, I started thinking about my ideal wedding. I've never really thought about how I want it done, but yesterday I did.

So this is it. This will be my copyright. My idea. Do not rip my idea off. If I ever see a wedding the way I wanted it, I will sue you.

Church wedding will be gold and white-themed. Matted gold, not the obstentatious sort. Matted but still a little shimmery. Gold cloth that fall from the ceiling, with white cranes that dangle and dance between the gold cloth. White lilies beautifully wrapped in gold paper. HUGE fans that blow into pools of soapy solution to produce bubbles. Candles floating in water, dry ice.. the works..guests will participate in the theme too hopefully.

i thought about other themes i like, like black and white (slightly edgy), red and white (kinda like the 1950's all-american feel, with those stand-up microphones, jukeboxes, pants that end at ankles, long really flare skirts, headbands and all. retro. jazzy. red leather. you get the idea.) then i thought of red and black (passion. ill wear a red gown. ;) not white for purity but red for passion. but i dun think it'll go down well with my parents) but i decided i like gold and white the best.

wedding will be followed by a reception. a proper one, not those you have to stand around holding paper plates filled with fried noodles etc. proper tables (with white and gold tablecloth naturally) with beautiful flowers as centerpiece, proper glassware. it will still be buffet style but with waiters who come round to clear plates etc.

dinner on a yacht. it will be traditional. really chinese. with cheongsams and all. if u really know me well, you would know i have a penchant for cheongsams. well, it wont really be red red like chinese waitresses. but it will be a modern chinese thing. kinda like fusion, east meets west. im not into huge huge chinese weddings. mine will be grand and elegant but still small and cozy.

so anyway, i have this whole wedding thing planned out. like how im going to be married by the time im 25. which gives me 4 years to meet a guy fall in love and get married. i estimate the entire cost of the wedding to be approximately half a million too. which rocks. how cool is that. after doing my sums, i realise ill have to survive on 100 a wk inclusive of transport food utilities. fantastic. which means my perfect wedding is basically just an idealistic fairytale. no money and worst of all no groom. well i could hire a groom for a day i guess for 1000? spending so lavishly on 1 day to live 50years like a beggar. alone too.

awesome eunice. awesome.