i already forget how i used to feel about you

i went to the doctor today because i have this growth at my ear cartillage, where my top piercing is. It's not a piercing infection though, because my piercing was done some 4,5 years ago. Besides, there was no pus.

I went paranoid thinking it was a keloid because keloids are notoriously difficult to treat because they have a high chance of recurrence even after surgery. Not only that, the operation might cause the formation of more scar tissue, resulting in an even bigger keloid than before. :(

next, i worried my mind sick over the possibility that i might have cancer. What would happen? Would I have to cut my ear off? Would I have to walk around with my hair down forever? Would I die? Would ear cancer be difficult to cure?

I started praying that it would be a keloid after all. Thankfully it is neither a tumour nor a keloid, but just skin tissue that can be easily removed. Although that would mean yet another scar on my body. :(

I dont know when the surgery will be, but it will just be a minor one, hopefully asap, before school starts. I should stop getting piercings. all my piercings get rejected by my body. as much as i adore navel piercings, mine is all out of shape and disgusting. sigh.