i already forget how i used to feel about you

How lovely the deception,
Your black black heart.
To hate to love, as hate love entwined
Not yet forsaken yet long forgotten

Like the nondescript morning glory
Left to die as Helio retreats
That waxes and withers, wistful willing weak.

If you would pull away, my wearisome love;
Yet come again, if only for a while

The untold tale of a broken heart,
Eternity yoked in one abject loop.

and I still remember how, your heart turned cold, so cold I ached with numbness. How I cried and how I died inside, but through the tears and pain, still the ambers glowed deep within me, while I waited for the flames to die down. You come and go, leaving me with no way out. One tiresome cycle, that never seems to end. How would I ever know if you love me, if you ever did, if you ever will?